Don't ask me where I have been!

I haven't been anywhere or done anything all week. I have just been home with my bless-ed hubby and kids.

Well, we went out for New Years of course. I was so excited about the New Year. I had so many thoughts and plans for 2010.It is funny how one day, New Years day, can make you look back at where you have been and forward to where you want to go.

I had been itching for the New Year. I was going to do this and going to to do that in The New Year. As soon as it began, I was gonna, gonna, gonna!

Four days in and I felt like I was still in last year. I hadn't achieved anything. Had I put too much pressure on myself?

I'd been wandering around like a lost soul. Pondering my lack of ommpphh. Thinking about last year and thinking about this year. I'd even made a 'vision' board (I call mine a 'sidetrip' board) of where I wanted to go.

I had been waiting, waiting, waiting for it to happen.

Nothing had happened.

Today, I finally took the old calender off the wall. I flicked through the pictures on it and read the captions below. One caption spoke to me.

'The first rule of focus is this: wherever you are, be there" Author Unknown

These words reminded me of New Years Eve when the moon was large and full over the Valley. I stood and looked at this glorious moon and let its beams fill me with belief and excitement for the New Year. As I stood looking at the moon I stilled myself and soaked up the moment wanting to remember the night when 2010 arrived.

As I remembered New Years Eve, I closed my eyes and pictured the moon hanging over the Valley bathing me in it's reflective light. I then realised why I was lacking my ommpphh. Too much looking back and too much looking forward. I need to focus on where I am.

I need to let the New Year unfold, one moment, one minute, one hour, one day, one week and one month at a time.

So here I am.

I trust it will be a fabulous New Year, not only for me but for you too!


Cathryn xo